Thumper, my Bubba

Nothing I can write here can do justice to explain how much I love you, how much I miss you and how much I am hurting right now. I can’t believe I am writing your Rainbow Bridge tribute, it feels so final, but I have to do it, for you.

Fate brought you into my life 10 years and seven months ago. I shudder when I think what might have come of you if you hadn’t been found in that field that night. You were so small and so scared. Who knows how long you had been out there for. All these years I’ve wondered where you came from, but all I want to know now is, where have you gone?

You didn’t live with me in the beginning, but I always knew I was going to make you mine. We were destined to be together, you and me.

I can’t believe you are gone Bubba. Of course, we knew about your tumour and we could see it was getting bigger, but the vet said you had a few months left, and then you were gone just 4 days later. The end was all so sudden. You died in my arms/on my knee, on the way to the vet on Saturday December 10th at approx 14:30. I hope you felt safe, and that you knew how much we loved you. I am sorry that I never thought to take your blankie with us, but we left in such a rush. A selfish part of me is glad, because I want to keep it, it was such a big part of you, you had it forever! But you were not left alone, I left you at the vet with your big green towel, so you will always be warm and comfortable. It was so hard to leave you there, but I hope to have you home for Christmas.

You did exactly what I asked of you, I BEGGED you not to let go until we moved out of the flat and into a new home. I so feared you dying in the flat because I’d have felt like I was leaving you behind if we’d moved afterwards. I wanted memories of you in our forever home. Thank you Bubba, for giving them to me.

You took my request quite literally and you left us 6 months to the day we moved in.

People keep saying to me “she was old” “she had a great life” “nobody could have loved her more than you” “nobody could have gave her a better life than you” but I never felt like I could do enough for you, I didn’t feel like anything was good enough for my Bubba. I would have wrapped you in cotton wool if I could, to protect you from the world.

Whenever I was in a bad mood or just having a bad day, Mark would point you in my direction and I would instantly feel better. You brightened up my life and now I am in such a dark place without you.

Since we moved into the new house, I slept with you in your room on a Friday night so Mark wouldn’t wake me early in the morning. How can I sleep in there now without you?

I’ve never been big on Christmas, but every Christmas night before bed, you and me would make a pact, one more Christmas together. I didn’t ask you to make that pact last year because I didn’t know if you would make it and I didn’t want you to feel like you were letting me down. But now, all I can think is, if we’d made that pact, would you still be here? But I know you would be if you could be.

I’m home alone today without you, for the first time. The house feels so empty without you. I’ve just spent hours looking at all your pictures, some of them made me smile, most of them made me cry. I’m so glad that you spent half your life with a camera or a phone poked in your face, because the pictures and the videos are all I have left of you now.

Over the next few days, I’m going to clear some of your stuff away. Please don’t think that I’m doing it because I don’t want your things around or it’s because I don’t love you anymore, I have to do it, because looking at it all is killing me. Seeing your cage every day, filled with your things but not you is breaking my heart even more than it is broken already, if that is possible.

Already my life has changed so much, I don’t like it one little bit. Your needs were always my number one priority, and now you’re gone, I’m lost.
I can’t believe I’ll never hear you grunt with excitement again, or that our nightly cuddles on the sofa are no more.

So many people have cried for you Bubba, but nobody more than me, I miss you so much it hurts.

But you will live on through me and through HH. I still have hundreds of your pictures, videos and stories to share. I just hope, in time, that I can do it. Right now it hurts too much but I will try my best because it’s the very least you deserve. But if I can’t do it, please forgive me, it’s only because I love you so much.

Thank you Thumper, my Bubba, for the amazing 10 years and 7 months we had together. You have made such an impact on my life, my little mange tout addict. I am honoured to have been able to call myself your bunny-mummy. You were one in a million; there will never be another like you.

Sleep well my beautiful baby girl, we will love you and miss you forever.

Love from your Mummy
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I am crying so much for you right now

she was a very special girl

I can only read half as I can't see to read the rest for crying, but I've looked at the photos and she was just such a little star and it just won't be the same without her here. It doesn't matter if a bunny is 7 months old or 10 years of age there is never a right time for them to leave us.

I just love the way she crosses her front paws a true sign how comfortable she was with her world

Thumper sweetheart I will never forget you
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Fabulous pictures and a worthy tribute

She looks so happy and content in every pic

Binky free sweetheart. Never to be forgotten.

What a special girl.
I've not cried as much as this since losing my last bun.
She was a smasher.
She's left a void. X

Goodness me I'm in bits.

You were a special girl Thumper, and you touched everyone here. We will miss you too. x x x x x x x x x x x

I can't stop the tears streaming down my face! What a beautiful tribute! I just can't believe there are photos and stories you haven't told us!!

Enjoy the bridge thumper! I'm sure you will be giving them all lesson in being a lady! The last picture sums her up perfect!

What a lovely girl she was. Binky free little one xxxxx

Oh Thumper!
That last photo says it all.. what a character! I don't think I've ever seen a pic of a bun with paws crossed... a great matriach doe!

Gonna miss, Miss, MISS you little girl XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

A beautiful heartfelt tribute to a very special girl.

I am so sorry your heart is breaking. I wish I could take some of the pain away for you. It doesn't matter how old she was or how ill she was, she was your friend and you didn't want her to go whatever.

I think that fact that it all happened so fast after you were given the estimate of a few months was a body blow for you. I'm sure you feel cheated as I would too.

We are all here to help you get through this and we are all hurting too, but not to the extent obviously, that you do.

Whenever I see mange tout, I think of her and I hope there are meadows of the stuff at the Bridge.

What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful girl Binky free Thumper xxxx (I have sent u a pm hun)

Thumper you will always be our Hopstar! You were a very special bun, who will be very sadly missed, binky free beautiful xxxx

I'm now sat here sobbing

What a perfect tribute to Thumper

Your words, thoughts & emotions just perfectly sum up how much the little girl meant to you.....and all of us

I am still struggling to believe OUR Thumper is no longer here

My thoughts & prayers are with you at such a very difficult time

What a gorgeous special girl. Sleep tight Thumper. x
Sending you lots of

I am so very sorry love. RIP Little one.

Hugs

JO xx

Merry Christmas sweetheart x x x x x x x x x

It's not the same here without you

This was you about this time last year.

Refusing to open your presents!


Checking out your new bed after I opened it


I think you decided you liked it!


Breakfast in bed!


I remember last year my dad picked me up from MIL's and we popped in by our flat for their presents, we packed up the car and I said 'oh, I've forgotten something' I ran back inside, wrapped you in a towel to keep you warm, and off we went!! Dad said to me 'Do you really think I didn't know what you had gone back for?' Haha!

After we got there, you decided the best place to lie would be right in front of the living room door! Dad wanted out, he pointed at you and said 'good one!' and was about to move you. Me: 'noooooooo!!! I'll move her!' Haha!

I love you loads Bubba and I miss you so so much. Today is going to be so hard without you, it already is I'm so used to you running away with bits of wrapping paper in your mouth, refusing to open your presents and generally being ace!!!

I hope you aren't missing us too much.

We love you and miss you Bubba, love from Mummy x x x x x x x x x

Merry Christmas Thumper, I hope you are being spoiled rotten at the bridge and getting ready for a huge Christmas party.

for your Mummy

I'm so sorry you lost your gorgeous Thumper. I know I shouldn't have favourites, but she was one of them. Little miss Prim and Proper and a true mange tout addict!!

Happy new year Bubba.

I am so sad that you never saw 2012. It would have made us so happy if you had.

Even after we moved out of Nanny's and into the flat, you spent most Hogmanay nights at Nanny's, for your own safety and sanity. The flat was always too rowdy for you, but after the bells, we would always walk over to see you, to say happy new year to you. (And them of course.)

I'm sure it was strange for them, you not being there last night and this morning.

New years day morning was always me nagging Mark. 'Can we go get her now?' 'How about now?' 'Are you nearly ready yet, we need to go and get Thumper!'

It was always a day where we three did absolutely nothing! I remember last year, you lying in your cage snoozing and I was on the sofa reading a book. You could have came out but you enjoyed your lazy days too!

I sat in your room last night, you were the first person that I wished a happy new year. I wish I could have done it for real, rather than talking to your picture and your empty cage.

I miss you so much baby girl and starting a brand new year without you is upsetting me so much.

I will love you forever and will think of you always.

Mummy x x x x x x

shed a tear for you today Thumper x x x x x x x x x

I'm sat here in tears reading this for Thumper , I tried to do one for Pud but I just couldn't for crying.

Thumper you are so very much missed by us all

and for you Thumpers Mummy

Another year.... and you're not forgotten Thumper!

to Thumpers Folks!

its took me a few days to read this,tears streaming down my face,i had a massive soft spot for you Thumper,iam glad your mummy has took milions of pictures of you becouse I for one will never get tired of looking at your pics or hearing the stories

binky free Thumper

Bless your heart! What a lovely tribute you wrote for her. I cannot stop crying myself. She was a special girl.

I too like the picture where her front paws are crossed. Looks to me like she is praying.

I can't say anymore than beautiful tribute.