In Memory of Maggies Kits

I know what we did during her surgery was the right thing to do, but this morning i found a nest in the run shelter and burst into tears. I never check the shelter because i had no idea she was pregnant and she doesnt wee or poo in there, so i only open it and clean it once a week. If i had been more observant, and did a sweep out of the run like i should have done, id have found the nest, and she wouldnt have had the surgery, so it is my fault that she lost the kits. If i had known, how could i possibly have put her through it? I just couldnt have done it.

I wish i hadnt watched the surgery, i didnt think i was as emotionally attached to her as i am. If i hadnt of seen those babies, i might not feel like i do now. This weekend is killing me, it was ok yesterday because i was busy, but being sat at my desk at work, i just cant stop thinking about it.

Heres a little video i made.

That is beautiful! Please don't blame yourself. Some things are meant to be. (((((hugs)))))

you shouldn't blame yourself you saved her more stress than she has already had, and maybe its a good thing you didn't find the nest because you then would have been stuck with a horrible decision. Let her nurse kits and then send babies into rescues and add more stress to Maggie, or choose to abort them. This way it was out of your hands, and like farplace said some things are meant to be.

Oh honey, please dont blame yourself, you did the right thing for her.

You have saved this little girl and are giving her the chance to have a wonderful life.

I am sending you love as I can imagine how sad you must be feeling x x x x x x x x

as the others have said don't blame yourself. You've given Maggie a fantastic new start in life, just think of that instead of the negative.

You've been amazing to Maggie, seriously don't beat yourself up about it

The video was beautiful too.

Maggie also didn't look pregnant, so there really was no way you would have know.

so sending you a few more

Thanks again everyone. I was just saying in the Rabbit and guinea pig welfare facebook group:

"Thanks for the support everyone. Ill get over it, ill be fine when Monday comes, my weekend job is very tedius and my mind wanders, so i got a bit upset at work thinking about things, esp when someone asked how the buns were and then made a joke about putting the babies in a stew. Theo , the babies were in her uterus when we spayed her. Lini I was stupid enough to ask the vet how old they were, i was fine with it all until this morning. Im usually pretty hardened to things like that too, ive seen much worse on the table at the vets. Lesson learned though. As for the kits and the weather, yes, your all right, but i would have hoped to find them and warm them up before its too late. Anyway, its silly even thinking about it, isnt it? Its happened now and regardless of how i feel, shes better off without them and i would do the same again if i had to. I just wouldnt ever watch!!!"

I think ive cried my tears for now, but i think Mum is going to have to clean her nest out for me. Thats what got me going in the first place!

Oh Sophia

How much worse off would she be if you had not got involved in her welfare at all? She would have been giving birth to those kits on a rubbish tip... if she had survived long enough to have them.

You did absolutely the right thing; sometimes it's a lot tougher making a decision on behalf of someone else when you would make the same decision for yourself in a heartbeat and *know* it was right.

Maggie's kits - there are plenty of wonderful buns at the bridge to look after you. You will never know neglect or abuse, pain or terror. Binky free

Oh that video is beautiful

As very sad as it was you have to look at it this way what if Maggie had problems giving birth there could have been a chance you would have lost them all.

It's just unfortunate that you saw the Op and kits as this must have been so hard for you I don't think I could have coped with that.

It's such an horribly tough situation, but you probably did the right thing by Maggie x

Oh I am so so sorry hon, I think its a huge shock because you werent prepared. It must have been so distressing seeing her little nest, but in reality she is better off, she can recover faster and just enjoy being a regular bun how they are meant to be.

You have saved her, you havent done this to her.

xxx

Oh sweetheart, please don;t worry, you are a great mum to her and I am sure she knows it. Hugs and comforts on their way.

Lots of love

Jo xx